April 2, 2008 9:23 PM
Update from Rachel - answered prayer, but more needed
Hello everyone,After a long day spent at the doctor, my prayers have been answered regarding the ectopic pregnancy. I believe I got my miracle.
Last night's u/s showed something on my left side and nothing in my uterus. Today, less than 24 hours and many, many prayers later, the u/s showed nothing on my left side and a yolk sac in my uterus. The doctor told me that the yolk sac did not look healthy, and that he believed I will miscarry. He said that there was other debris in my uterus, and he believed it to be blood clots. This is consistent with the bleeding I've had today and last night.
While I am heartbroken that I most likely will not get my baby, I am praising God for answering my prayer. I don't have a doctor's statement that the pregnancy moved from my tube to my uterus, but that's what I feel in my heart happened. Regardless, I don't have an ectopic pregnancy, and for that I am thankful.
I wrestled all night with it, and I had decided today that I would not end the pregnancy no matter the danger to my own health. I'm so thankful to not have to make that decision. I was prepared to defend my decision not to terminate to the doctor and had been praying that he would be sympathetic and supportive of my choice. I was quite relieved...and at the same time devastated all over again...when I learned that I did have a baby in my womb but that it most likely won't live. I know God could still change that. Please continue to pray for me.
We told the kids tonight. Please pray for their little hearts. They know that God may take our Little One to Heaven, but they are still excited and hopeful that they can pray for Him to let us have our baby and He will do so. I don't want to take their hope away, because I believe God can do that if He wills it. I don't want them to be heartbroken, though, either.
My mind is a little "something" from the pain meds. I hope this makes sense. I will write something a little more thought out for my blog. Pray for me. I need His strength. I completely broke down into a sad, sobbing mess before the doctor left the room. I'm a little worn out. It's been a long day. God is good. Thanks for praying. Thanks for loving me.
Love,
Rachel
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Oh my goodness. I prayed for this sister yesterday. I'm sitting at the screen crying now. This story and Rachel's response to what is happening has moved me so much.
Continuing to pray here in London.
Posted by: Clare | April 3, 2008 9:17 AM
I prayed for Rachel, too, and although I am saddened at the thought of a possible miscarriage, I am thankful that she came to her decision with prayer and peace. I will keep praying for a another miracle.
Posted by: Kathy | April 3, 2008 12:12 PM
