January 21, 2013 11:03 PM
Perspective of staying on compass...An old friend sent me a picture today that reminded me of how God works in our lives through the process of time, relationships, and circumstances. Even though we may think we have a sense of direction and purpose...Our Father in Heaven is truly the only one who stays on compass. How many times in our lives have each of us lost our heading, only to have Him bring us back on course and into safe harbor. These new tides of grief and mourning I have been sailing through are as constant as the ocean's waves breaking on the shore. It could be a storm or a beautiful day....but it's always there. I'm at sea, waiting for my next heading.
I've shared with you our beginnings...passionate, turbulent, momentous times for what our future together would become.....with both of us acting out of character. All things being normal, we should have blown out of each others lives within a couple of months...From the beginning when everyone except Danny and Debbie, (our marriage witnesses) were objecting..... to her dying...we had conflict and contention from within and without. The reason being of course, that we always would stand and step forward for what we thought was right. Reality being that if you don't stand for anything, you don't have conflict until you eventually get run over. This became even more a part of our lives when going through a crisis together in 1987 we came face to face together with the God who had been keeping each of us afloat through the years.
From then on, our life was filled with a new daily insight and understanding of what we should be doing and standing for.... backed with a sense of grace, love, courage, and strength to carry it forward. It was shortly after this time when Barbara came to me one Sunday morning and in a very quiet voice said, "When I was in high school, Sister Isabelle said I had a gift for writing; I've been thinking about writing a book." I looked at her and said, "Wow Honey, you never told me that before. Let's enroll you in a writer's conference and see what you need to do to make that happen. I'll handle the children while you go." The rest is history.....she became a pen for all that God holds dear, especially children, mothers, families, and the culture of our society.
Reflection: Looking at the two wild and crazy typhoons below and what their lives became...Barbara and I encourage and exhort you to stay the course. Don't deviate from the compass heading He gives you, regardless of the many diversions that may come your way on your voyage. I tell you truth...we were both unfaithful before we first went out....but never since. Be stubborn for what is right and be true to your love. If you are willing, He will assure you to stay on compass.
For a girl that started out with a lousy hand, she left us with a full house.
You probably know by now that, "my one weakness" is music... I leave you with this cover of an old Dylan tune that meant one thing to Barbara and I when we started with everyone against us......and since time has passed means something entirely different to me as we've weathered many storms....and will now be voyaging on alone...
In His grip,
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Thank you for sharing this journey with us. I love the pictures and the music ! I continue to pray for you and your family. And I continue to come to mommylife . . . thank you again for sharing and keeping this site up.
Posted by: dee | January 22, 2013 12:52 AM
I never realized that we were the only ones for you not against you, better yet, what God was doing. I pray for you and the family daily, Tripp, I can't imagine what your heart longs for, but I know that God can do anything with our hearts focused on Him.
Take good care
Posted by: Debby Dotson | January 22, 2013 11:39 AM
I have to confess, I didn't like this blog much when I happened upon it. I'm a supporter of the current president, and I disagree with taking personal digs at any of our leaders (and yes, that includes GWB) who have to make unpopular decisions and lead when others won't.
But since Barbara died, I have felt awful for you and your family. Your posts are so poignant. You have a gift for articulating your pain. You must surely be reaching others who are grieving, too. And although I found Barbara's political posts at times offensive, you truly have done her memory a wonderful turn. It's clear she made a beautiful, indelible mark in your world while she was here.
You are in my prayers.
Posted by: LMD | January 22, 2013 1:03 PM
It's incredible the work that God accomplished through the two of you. And still he continues...
(tears in my eyes)
Posted by: Sue from Buffalo | January 22, 2013 1:19 PM
Thanks Deb. Hope you are well. Please contact me on my email. firstname.lastname@example.org
Posted by: Barbara | January 22, 2013 4:25 PM
This is so beautiful...Thank you for trying to encourage others.
There are so many things I learned from Barbara..
Her willingness to step out and go against the flow was a big influence on my life. I see now, more than ever, that this was a part of Barbara's life for many, many years. She saw what God could redeem if we would allow him to work in our lives and be willing to step out and go against the flow.
Her work lives on...
God bless you,
Posted by: Lisa | January 22, 2013 6:21 PM
I haven't commented for a while, but I have been reading -and praying for you, Tripp. This post is such a wonderful testimony to your marriage and your faith, I appreciate your words and music clips so very much.
Posted by: ~Becky | January 24, 2013 9:01 AM
I have to second what Becky said above. I too have been reading along on this blog for the past four years or so. Barbara's books are what encouraged me first to homeschool preschool, and then to go on with homeschooling from there. It has been one of the best decisions for our family!I think of and pray for your family often. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us here! God Bless you!
Posted by: Valerie | January 28, 2013 12:31 AM
We met & had some communal vortexes so many years ago somewhere in the midst of your sweet sister Leslie....and my flame du jour, Marna. In the heat & heady times of that era, there were some bonds that for me, will never be broken or unchained. I still hold those days, those times & influences as wonderful ongoing passages to being a more complete & better human being.
I still, believe it or not, have ongoing remembrances & positive thoughts from those embryonic days.
To that extent & beyond..Bless you & your brood...as evidenced by the great pix you've shared here.
I wish you love.... my pal from the distant past!
Posted by: David Frederick Pugh | February 1, 2013 11:29 PM